The Answer

Okay. So I didn't exactly get an answer. But I do feel a little better. Maybe I am suffering from post partum depression. Who knows. But Robert and I spent a few hours together today before he went into work and everything seemed okay. I once again told him I was okay with the way things are between us. He said it was because I was afraid to lose my freedom. What freedom? I'm basically another child in this house because I have to ask permission to go anywhere if I leave even one child at home. How can that be considered freedom? That's what I told him. I don't think he wants anything from me because of the Deadbeat. He doesn't really keep up his end financially and I think that is what keeps Robert from pursuing anything. He doesn't want to pay for kids that aren't his. Especially when he will have his own to pay for when the divorce is finalized. Maybe I'm just paranoid. Who knows. But as I said, I do feel better about things. At least today. Maybe tomorrow I won't. Until whenever...