It was an okay day today.

Spent the day with Robert and the kids. We went grocery shopping and hung out at his house. Made tacos and rice. Was a boring day. No drama. I did get a little irritated him before I left because I told him I wanted to come back because I needed some attention from him. He told me no. I was shocked! I just sent him a text message because he's not answering his phone. Hmmmmmm...back in the bad place. I had been trying each day to make things better in my head about him and our past. It has been slow goings but now I'm at a standstill. It's like I ran into a brick wall and looking up, trying to figure out how to climb over it.
I'm going to church tomorrow for the first time in a very long time. I think I need to bring some peace into my life. Finding God is just the beginning.
I also found a very inspirational quote while searching the web. "Nobody can make you feel inferior without your permission."--Eleanor Roosevelt. It is so true! I am good enough! Robert isn't any better than me. He acts superior at times to me and I am always quick to put him in his place when he tries. Sometimes I think that boy just needs a reality check. He's not perfect and he is in no way better than I am. It's funny cuz the things he says don't bother me. I just know that I also am not perfect and I try everyday to be the best person I can be to everyone who comes into my life. I keep trying to teach him that little piece of wisdom. Still not sure why he thinks he's better than me. Maybe he's jealous that I have my family intact and he doesn't. Who knows. Anyway, I am a little nervous about going to church tomorrow. It is my childhood church and I went to the website to check out times and everything and there is another new pastor there. I hope I enjoy his sermons because I would really like to stay at my church. Good night!