I'm a little surprised...

...that Robert actually called me today. When I asked him if he even got the message from last night he said yes. He said it sounded like I needed to cool down before we talked so he didn't call. Well, duh!!! Anyway, I still don't know if this is a relationship I should stay in. My heart is screaming at me that if I end things, it will kill me. My head says I deserve to be treated right. Unfortunately, I agree with both. So what's a woman to do? Maybe I should try to weather the storm. Maybe this is just a bad phase we're (or more probably I am) going through. He does own some of this though. These feelings aren't just in my head. I might not be the brightest crayon in the box but I know when I am hurting and I know when I'm hurtin cuz of Robert. I'm gonna go over there tonight and talk with him. If he wants to end it then I will let him go. If not, he had better fight to keep things going strong. I won't put up with a man who lets things be half ass! It's all or nothing til the end baby and you'd better believe it!
I keep telling myself I should back off slowly and see what happens. But every time I try that I fall in deeper.
On a lighter note, I put in some job applications today. Here's a lesson girls: DON'T DROP OUT OF SCHOOL FOR A GUY!!!! I can't find a good paying job to save my life! My girlfriend says to get into stripping cuz the cash is unbelievable, but I can't do that! I got kids! If I'm not proud of what I'm doing, how are they gonna be proud of their ma? So now I am gonna wait a few days to see what comes up. Hopefully by this Monday I will be a working woman once again!
Ok all! Take care and until next time America! Oh God I have to get a job! I'm quoting Murry!