Sick and tired of being sick and tired...
That would be how I have felt the last week. He ended up call me a few hours after I posted the last entry. Said he went to play volleyball. He called to tell me he was going out with his cousin Ricky. In other words he was blowing me off again. So last night he says he's going to play volleyball again and to call at 5:30. Guess what? No answer. (What? You didn't think I was actually say he answered did you?) So he calls me about 7:45. He tells me I sounded irritated on my voice message. Well duh! Then he informs me he is having Ricky over. And Jonas. Thanks. Blowing me off again eh? All this after I told him he has been blowing me off every other Friday. He said he would spend a month of Fridays with me to prove nothing is going on. I replied with then I guess I will be seeing you every other Saturday. He laughed his stupid "I can't believe you" laugh ( You know the one. The one where you just want to claw his eyes out for just dismissing your emotional outrage.) and said no. So where are we now? He's blowing me off again. Yes I know I already said that but I need to hammer the point into my own head. Then the conversation just takes off from there touching on different things (why he doesn't want to live together, how I ended up pregnant (he said it was very convienent of me to get knocked up after I found out he was cheating. Now isn't usually the other woman who gets pregnant to trap the man? Or is that only on Springer?) how I haven't forgiven him (hello? I took him back!!! Or maybe that's just punishment. Who knows?) or forgotten. I don't think I will ever forget. Wait, scratch that! I know I will never forget it!). He said he would call me later. I told him don't expect to hear from me. He then said something about the new bed he's getting tomorrow about how we were to break it in. I told him to go break it in with someone else. He hung up on me and I haven't heard back from him. And I am actually okay with that. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. And if I had to be honest, I think he's purposely pushing me away. Well guess what Asshole? It's working! If you push anymore I'm gonna break through my threshhold! So now what? We had a fight. We haven't broken up so if he pulls shit tonight when he goes out we are so done. Fuck you and the slut you rode on muthaf***er!
1 Comments:
At 10:15 AM , TRUTHZ said...
jen...don't worry... some times we have to get sick and tired of being sick and tired a few times before we really get SICK of dealing with people and things that makes us sick and tired...hang in there...and pray...
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