I can't deal

He never called me. How can someone be so callous? I am dying inside. Why doesn't he care enough to even call? It's not fair. I have left message after message and still nothing. What excuse could he possibly have for treating me so horribly? And why do I still the jerk after all this? I don't know if I will be able to get past this. Please God give me strength. There might be another post if he answers his phone on his lunch hour. Don't hold your breath.