It's after midnight

and I still haven't heard from him. I am dying inside. I don't know what to do or to think. Why would he ignore me like this? Sure the first few messages were not very kind. But then I begin to get panicky and they became more worrisome and then they got angry again then they got sad and hopeless. What a joke. Why would he do this unless he is cheating again? Please help me. I need strength.