Talk about your topsy-turvy day!

Today was filled with so many crazy emotions! First I got sick again. So that wasn't much fun. Three hours of trying to keep the contents in my stomach (mostly water!) inside. Then Giselle gets sicker. She had a runny nose then a stuffy nose, then a nasty cough then nasty icky diapers that would gross out the world's strongest stomach! So I took her to the hospital. The doctor said she has an upper respitory infection. She didn't prescribe anything for it which I found rather odd. So I tried to call Robert at 4:45 to let him know what was going on, knowing he would be getting out of work around 5:15. Giselle was in and out within 45 minutes (musta been a slow day!). So I try to call again. Nothing. By now it's 5:45. And I am starting to get that same ole feeling when I get to thinking. So I decided to drive by his place. No one's home. So I think I will go past his work. It's in the next town over. 15 minutes tops. That's how long it takes him to get to work. Man, I sat in some fucked up traffic for nearly an hour and a half! I finally get close to his work when I see a car pull out. Shit! Busted! Freakin that he'll bitch about me spyin or whatnot. Whew! Not him. So I pull over and call him just in case he's gettin in his car to leave. Don't need him seein me check up on him. That's my secret. So he says he's still there and doesn't know when he's gettin out. So I went into the parking lot and sure enough his car's there. I felt instantly guilty. It's not fair. I keep saying to myself what will I say if he's not there and he says he is. What will I do? I still don't have an answer to that. So he calls at 9:20 and says he dropped off one of his coworkers at home and is on his way home. The question is, when will I finally learn to trust him again? What will it take? I want to trust him. Really I do, it's just that I feel so betrayed even more than a year later. They say it takes time, but I am still at square one. If anyone is reading this and has some experience with this sort of thing and some advice with what has helped them, PLEASE let me know!